Congratulations! It's a .... 6

If you listen closely to what others are saying today, you'll gain amazing insight under the Capricorn full Moon. Internal conflicts or power struggles can be eliminated if you just accept conditions as they are and trust that the Universe will change things in due time.

The only person I really heard today said that my writing is smart and funny. But also a little negative. I can see that. I'm a little cynical, I'll cop to it. But I do want the reader to finish reading feeling better about themselves, and me, so I need to do some work.

Can't think about writing today, though, I'm deep in the throes of basement cleaning. It's quite addicting. I've been throwing things out like crazy, including all my old - and negative - journals. I'm not thrilled to find that I'm still writing about the same issues at 44 that I was writing about at 24. Yikes.

And so, Universe, I AM accepting things as they are: I'm unemployable, smart and funny but negative, and unable to raise money for a documentary. I wouldn't mind knowing when "due" time is, though. In my experience, the first time you hear "due" the time frame is 9 months. I'm praying that is not the case now.

It's a good thing 8

If you're a homebody right now, that's a good thing!

I have been a total homebody. To the point of hiding out in my basement. I'm tired of babysitting my cell phone and email, just waiting for a job, an investor, anyone to contact me and cleaning out the basement is keeping me busy. And I'm actually accomplishing something. It feels pretty good to throw stuff out and get the rest of it organized. It feels great to walk into a spacious, not crowded, laundry room.

It feels good to let my mind relax too. My mind has been running about 100 mph since last winter and trying to actually give something some thought is like trying to enter a speeding highway. I needed to slow down and not think about anything, but be doing something at the same time. If that makes any sense.

So thank you, my Martha Stewart Horoscope, for letting me know I'm on to a 'good thing.'

I repeat, Show me the Money 0

A windfall that comes your way will allow you to pursue more creative interests in your spare time while still catching up on financial obligations.

These are the 'scopes that drive me crazy. Is EVERY Pisces on the planet getting a windfall today? Even if that windfall is only $1 per Pisces, that's a pretty mighty check for the Universe to be writing. Apparently one it can't cash. I got nothin' today.

Nothin.

When you wish upon a star 4

A magical energy will follow you around this week, thanks to your tarot card, the Star. If you make a wish, it's bound to come true!

Really. No, that's not a questioning "really" - it's a "really" dripping with so much sarcasm it could be wrung out like a washcloth. Or "warshcloth" as my mother-in-law says. It's funny, my grandma always said it that way too.

I do have energy, even though I also have incredible pain. My back is killing me, but I'm determined to clean out and organize my house. I started this morning with the basement. Cleaned out my prize closet, then started on the laundry room -- a big job.

Here's a question: what do you do with old awards and plaques? It seems almost ungrateful to throw them out "Thanks a lot, Red Cross, but I really don't need your Volunteer of the Year 1998 plaque anymore." (I wasn't really the Red Cross Volunteer of the Year in 1998; I don't know if they even give out such an award, but I needed an example and can't remember any of the "honors" sitting in my basement.) They're not just my awards, they belong to Husband too. Apparently he was Employee of the Month more than once. Quite a catch. I'm a lucky girl.

So, what is my wish? If it's going to come true I should be careful when I make it, right? Do I wish for just enough money to pay for skating? Or do I wish for enough money to make the documentary? Or do I give up on being selfish and wish for world peace? Do I wish for a job, so I can keep making money? Do I wish for jobs for everyone so unemployment will go down?

And what about this: IF you make a wish it's bound to come true? Who isn't walking around wishing all the time? I'm wishing so much I'm like that bad joke - a Genie could show up and grant me one wish and I'd say something stupid like, "Wow, this is a big decision. I wish I had more time."