We all want progress 9

If you review the progress you've made over the last three months by logging even smallest achievements, you'll begin to see a pattern of breakthroughs and how they are moving you closer to your dreams. (kajama.com)

So if I review my progress since December 1 I've

Nearly finished my book
Shot two commercials
Cut one voice over
Been an extra in a movie (A George Clooney movie!!!!!)
Done a lot of blog writing - paid and unpaid
Applied for a lot of jobs
Painted two rooms in my house
Went on a fabulous vacation (Hey, it SAID even the "smallest achievements")
Started going to the gym again
Created a website

Is that a lot to do in 3 months or are most people doing more than that? Am I an overachiever? A slacker? Right in the middle?

You know what? I really don't care. I'm feeling pretty good right now. I'm feeling positively positive. And I think the Universe is encouraging that feeling so I'm going to go with it.

My dream? I have a lot of dreams. My goals for 2009 - get a well-paying gig and get a role in one of movies being shot here. And if those happen to be one and the same....all the better!

The first horoscope of 2009 8

You see the gulf between your ideal dreams and your current situation. There are two paths before you and two attitudes for you to choose from today. Consider your options carefully; as you pick your response to what's happening now, you're also choosing your future.

OK, then. I pick the best option, the right option, the positive option. Yes, I'm frustrated and yes, I'm feeling like the pickings are slim and I am (somewhat) unemployable but I know that I'm not. I know there's something out there; I know I can finish my book and write more. I know....I know something will happen.

Maybe not today. Maybe not even when I want - or need. But something will happen. So I choose to path that takes me from my Current Situation to my Ideal Dream.

Astrological Tantrum 0

Every now and then, you're in the perfect astrological position to make your dreams come true. This is your time. All you have to do is stop searching. Let things unfold as they will. You can't help but find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

OK, Universe, I don't mean to sound doubtful, but the only thing I'm in the perfect position for is another panic attack. And haven't I had this one before? I think I need to go back through my 'scopes and check for repeat offenders.

This Astrology.com daily horoscope is anything but daily. Sure it arrives in my inbox every day; it comes with four different mini-scopes - an overview, love, energy and career, with a date above each for the time period it covers. It's kind of like a horoscope-biorhythm combination. So the date for the 'scope above(Overview) is March 21-August 5. So, again, not trying to be doubtful here, but not really seeing any dreams coming true. In fact, there is a part of me that thinks I need to grow up and give up on my dreams. I'm always a step behind. I just finished a great book - Bitter is the New Black by Jennifer Lancaster - who was not a writer and had no dreams to be one until she was unemployed and started a blog to work her snarky out - and it's not that I don't wish her success, because I do, but one of the reasons I read this book is because a friend told me "Oh my God, she writes just like you!" Then why don't I have a book deal? And there is not a week that goes by without someone asking me if I've voiced one commercial or another. There is a woman out there somewhere who sounds JUST LIKE ME who is making a freakin' fortune.

Have I not worked hard enough? Do I not want it bad enough? Where is the end of MY freakin' rainbow? Seriously, I'm ready. I will be mean and sarcastic, I'll neglect my family, I'll do whatever it takes but all you, Universe, can tell me to do is STOP SEARCHING? Well, I've been trying that too. I've stopped searching so much that I'm practically curled up in a fetal ball. Today I cried so much that I'm still dehydrated.

Now you want me to believe that I'm halfway across the rainbow, that if I wait patiently, without searching, until August 5 that my dreams will come true. Pardon me for needing a little proof. I've always needed feedback. That's why I have a writing PARTNER. I'm tired of being jealous and worried and seeing something shiny and getting all excited that it's my promised pot of gold only to find out that it's...a shiny piece of crap.

Don't promise what you can't deliver, Universe.