We all want progress 9

If you review the progress you've made over the last three months by logging even smallest achievements, you'll begin to see a pattern of breakthroughs and how they are moving you closer to your dreams. (kajama.com)

So if I review my progress since December 1 I've

Nearly finished my book
Shot two commercials
Cut one voice over
Been an extra in a movie (A George Clooney movie!!!!!)
Done a lot of blog writing - paid and unpaid
Applied for a lot of jobs
Painted two rooms in my house
Went on a fabulous vacation (Hey, it SAID even the "smallest achievements")
Started going to the gym again
Created a website

Is that a lot to do in 3 months or are most people doing more than that? Am I an overachiever? A slacker? Right in the middle?

You know what? I really don't care. I'm feeling pretty good right now. I'm feeling positively positive. And I think the Universe is encouraging that feeling so I'm going to go with it.

My dream? I have a lot of dreams. My goals for 2009 - get a well-paying gig and get a role in one of movies being shot here. And if those happen to be one and the same....all the better!

The sound of my stupidity 7

When you hear the sound of your voice, you should be pleased. If you're not, find a better way to express yourself.

Seriously, how did I NOT get a call for a voice over audition today? I even walked right into TWO agencies today to drop off head shots -- nothing.

Though maybe I was supposed to be putting my voice over demo together. Doh!

OR, since I don't really like the sound of my voice I should have been writing. Double doh!

Am I ever going to get this right?

Permission slip to be a bitch

You have been holding back long enough. It's time that others realize who you are and what's important to you. Don't think about what's good for anyone else. Don't even ask for advice now, for the answer will most likely be of no help. Pushing your own agenda forward will not only get you closer to your goals, but will also make everyone aware of your abilities.

This is so freakin powerful! I only wish I had an agenda to push. I mean, there are things I want to accomplish and I have started working on them but after reading this even I am afraid of messing with me!

I turned in a magazine article this morning and for the first time did not neurotically ask six different people to read it and give me their opinions first. That might not sound like much, but for me it's pretty big. I'm rarely able to take a step without checking with someone first to make sure it's OK. I don't why I'm that way, but I'm tired of it. So I turned in the article this morning and not only did the world NOT end and the editor did NOT hate it but she wrote back right away and said it was good.

Good!

Be aware of my abilities everybody. Be very aware.

Congratulations! It's a .... 6

If you listen closely to what others are saying today, you'll gain amazing insight under the Capricorn full Moon. Internal conflicts or power struggles can be eliminated if you just accept conditions as they are and trust that the Universe will change things in due time.

The only person I really heard today said that my writing is smart and funny. But also a little negative. I can see that. I'm a little cynical, I'll cop to it. But I do want the reader to finish reading feeling better about themselves, and me, so I need to do some work.

Can't think about writing today, though, I'm deep in the throes of basement cleaning. It's quite addicting. I've been throwing things out like crazy, including all my old - and negative - journals. I'm not thrilled to find that I'm still writing about the same issues at 44 that I was writing about at 24. Yikes.

And so, Universe, I AM accepting things as they are: I'm unemployable, smart and funny but negative, and unable to raise money for a documentary. I wouldn't mind knowing when "due" time is, though. In my experience, the first time you hear "due" the time frame is 9 months. I'm praying that is not the case now.